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KeenaCab

Waiting for my own Hiddleston.
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So I don't visit Deviantart any more. I don't really draw or pixel or even paint since I started university, and now that I've finished and started working, I have no energy or time.

I still write a lot, and I'm over on Archiveofourown if you're around there at all.
Likewise, I'm on Tumblr nearly every day.

So I'm leaving dA. I'll be leaving my page up, but I won't be on here any more.

If you're not on Tumblr or AO3, I guess this is goodbye.

It's been a lovely couple of years, dA. I'll miss you.
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Dissertation

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I'm thinking that maybe I've done too much work for my dissertation. The fact that I haven't been able to find time to repeat a 100+ hour study makes me really sad.

Still, on the 26th I'll be visiting the British Tarantula Society at a group-meet type thing so I can buy some more bugs and pose some questions I'm still unsure about. 

I'm also going to buy some more vivariums too, and maybe something nice for my Jasper <3


Don't ever go to university, kids. Sponge off your parents for as long as humanly possible ;)
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at this point, i'm wondering if we're dating, or just joking. because i could totally fall for you. or may be falling for you. but i don't want to get rejected because i don't want either of us to get hurt or our friendship to break down and i just ugh

do i say something or leave it forever?
do i regret not ever saying it?
should i just get it out in the open?
But then what if they say no? oh god i don't even fucking know any more.

and maybe a little help would be nice

also if i know you in person never mention this. ever. 
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I'm going to be on a few times (There's a commission I need to pay for once they actually get back online) and then yeah.
I'm not going to deactivate this account, because who knows? I might actually start drawing/writing/pixelling again.

I just see no motivation on this site any more, and no motivation (or time) in myself.

That said, I don't want to lose you guys. I will still be around other places. You can find me:

Tumblr
Twitter
Facebook
Archive Of Our Own
Fanfiction

Sorry to anyone who had/wanted point commissions. With my dissertation planning and my transitional move to New Zealand, I just do not have the time to write.
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Just once, I'd like a wo/man who treats me like a human being, not an object of sexual desire/gratification.
Just this damn once. But it's not going to happen. Because no matter how nice I try to be to people, I always seem to find those who only seek to use me, or want me because they have no one else, and it hurts.

I'm so damn tired of it all. I'm officially open for prospective partners, because damn, if other men and women can't be civil about dating then I'm going to open it up like a business. Because relationships are business.

And just this once, I would like to be put first for a change. Just once, I want someone to come up to me and ask if I'm okay, so I can finally break down and release everything to them. Because inside this fragile body, there's a soul that's dying. It's howling for a voice, scrambling inside my frame with claws that make me bleed inside my mind. And it scares me, because whenever I turn my attention to myself, I can only see one outcome.

And it's not a very pretty sight. You may have guessed what I'm referring to.

Yes, I probably am suffering from depression. Most likely caused by those men and women who use me for both physical and emotional release.

And it tires me greatly. I hope that one day, I find someone who cares about me more than anything else, and in turn, I care for them.
Because the other prospect - the prospect where I don't hit twenty-five - is becoming an altogether more real reality.
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I'm sorry, but I'm leaving by KeenaCab, journal

I think I need help. by KeenaCab, journal